All About My Diary

Friends fear, about me or about their innocence?

Wow... This is still a tough one for me. I used to keep a diary, & during my first year of high school, I was confused &, well, experimenting. I loved to write, so that is what I did. I wrote about everything in my diary; my trials & errors, my sadness, my fears, my friends, my family.


Then one day my best friend did the most distrusting thing... She read my diary! She said it was because she was worried about me... Which is no excuse whatsoever! & I still have not forgive that action she took. Long story short... I got in a lot of trouble for the evidence my diary possessed, I was grounded for months & she tried to put me through therapy for it... Which pissed me off even more at the time. I hated her for a long time following, & I've punished her since. You see, she always wanted me to be a writer. So I stopped writing... Then blamed it on her.


Now, I cant tell if that was more a punishment for her or myself. Anyway, it is still a sore subject almost 10 years later. But I know even though I being upset over reading my diary, but I also have to understand that for a best friend to go to those measures to find out what is going on with her best friend is heartbreaking enough. I look at it as a wake up call & a learning experience for all of us.


I have gone through challenging moments growing up, but instead of using them as an excuse of why I chose not to pursue my passion I channeled my energies in other directions.

"It is often better to decide what is important to hold on to, what we are going to forgive, & what we let haunt us & perhaps move on."